First I wanted to thank you for sharing that! It's not only personal and moving, but also very important. It's so easy to point at external factor that inhibit us, when really all that does is pass off your power. If it is 'all their fault,' then technically their are the only ones to change it.

I've enjoyed my gamer mentality for a long time...
"There's always a way to win. Otherwise why would the game have been made."

Sometimes this means changing what we once thought were the 'rules.'

I hope the best for you!