I found this so very sad. Perhaps the saddest thing was the baby disappearing. My sister had a miscarriage, a little girl. We knew for some days before that the baby had died and those days waiting were very difficult. Yes, you have your lovely children, but there was this one as well. My sister mourned her lost child for many many years, even after her other children were born and grown up. It was only later that she was able to find some peace and resolution. Thank you for sharing and for remembering.