thank you so much @macchiata, it's so true. I think I've been running a long time, chasing that "one" thing outside of myself. I once sat at the beach in Thailand and all I could think of was leaving again and going to the mountains somewhere.. Always somewhere new. Always something else... running, running, chasing, chasing... Like a little hamster on the wheel thanks for your thoughts! And sorry for being a bit delayed with my answer...!! Best wishes to you my friend!!!
Sam