Do not worry, it's the case of most, sometimes ... Staying in a noisy environment and surrounded by friends can stifle, because routine kills ... The more you move away, the more you miss, that means you're alive, and motivated. The case that you do not know what you want, that means that you are intelligent and that you understand a little bit about everything, that you can coexist with any situation. That is a personal opinion, you have to throw a trawl and continue the journey, someday you will chase the synonym of indescribable joy ... For my part, I hope you have great success and great happiness in this new year :-)