Wow man this speaks to me on so many levels. I literally just Googled the definition of cyclothymia.
Before I started on therapy, my addiction too was anger and with that, my addiction to finding quick answers online. Know what term stood out to me?
Complex PTSD. Basically, PTSD but milder in nature i.e. you aren't some traumatized soldier who saw combat.
But all of it was honestly a way for me to go down a rabbit hole.
I just wanted to identify with something just so I could know something was legitimately wrong with me. That way, I felt I'd be able to find proper solutions and of course, feel validated in acting like an angry monster.
In other words, I wanted a free pass in life, which ultimately did not came to pass because face it, it was just my insecurities crying out for help; help from others so they can do the work for me instead.
As an aside, I must say the internet and social media has made it way too easy for people to think that they can categorize, hence self-diagnose a mental problem.
Looking forward to part two man. Thanks for the honesty and non-cheesy woo-woo post on self-development @rok-sivante.
nice writing...Anger is a disguised symptom of depression, especially in men. Whether you view that as the "cause" is another issue and beyond proof....I am waiting for the second part
In some people anger and frustration turn into a habitual way of looking at life, turning depression into a mere habitual state of mind for them, incapable of distinguishing when they really feel happy, or just a conditioned reflex ...
Shite. Whodathunk such a feat could be accomplished in under 1000 words! Lol. :-)
These aspects of the human experience... well, they’re just a part of the human experience. All a part of the journey, we all share with different variations of how they play out, but same underlying themes.
perhaps it's a matter of humbling ourselves to let go of our personal associations - i.e. "my" head - and opening access to the "master mind," "collective consciousness," "higher self," *blah blah blah (damn "spiritual" terms), from which we're simply streaming shared experiences - nothing particularly unique or individual about what's going on in "our" heads, but recognizing the cultural programs and common patterns at play throughout the human psyche as a whole...
Wow man this speaks to me on so many levels. I literally just Googled the definition of cyclothymia.
Before I started on therapy, my addiction too was anger and with that, my addiction to finding quick answers online. Know what term stood out to me?
Complex PTSD. Basically, PTSD but milder in nature i.e. you aren't some traumatized soldier who saw combat.
But all of it was honestly a way for me to go down a rabbit hole.
I just wanted to identify with something just so I could know something was legitimately wrong with me. That way, I felt I'd be able to find proper solutions and of course, feel validated in acting like an angry monster.
In other words, I wanted a free pass in life, which ultimately did not came to pass because face it, it was just my insecurities crying out for help; help from others so they can do the work for me instead.
As an aside, I must say the internet and social media has made it way too easy for people to think that they can categorize, hence self-diagnose a mental problem.
Looking forward to part two man. Thanks for the honesty and non-cheesy woo-woo post on self-development @rok-sivante.
Wow man this speaks to me on so many levels. I literally just Googled the definition of cyclothymia.
Before I started on therapy, my addiction too was anger and with that, my addiction to finding quick answers online. Know what term stood out to me?
Complex PTSD. Basically, PTSD but milder in nature i.e. you aren't some traumatized soldier who saw combat.
But all of it was honestly a way for me to go down a rabbit hole.
I just wanted to identify with something just so I could know something was legitimately wrong with me. That way, I felt I'd be able to find proper solutions and of course, feel validated in acting like an angry monster.
In other words, I wanted a free pass in life, which ultimately did not came to pass because face it, it was just my insecurities crying out for help; help from others so they can do the work for me instead.
As an aside, I must say the internet and social media has made it way too easy for people to think that they can categorize, hence self-diagnose a mental problem.
Looking forward to part two man. Thanks for the honesty and non-cheesy woo-woo post on self-development @rok-sivante.
Fuck dude. Wanna tear up while reading this - okay, I did a little.
Powerful confessions, statements, and reflections.
Your welcome. And your feedback is appreciated more than I can put into words. 👊💓
This is awesome! I will make sure to read more of your stuff. Like the picture "tree of life", everything was clear at that point
Which tree of life picture? Confused...
nice writing...Anger is a disguised symptom of depression, especially in men. Whether you view that as the "cause" is another issue and beyond proof....I am waiting for the second part
Interesting viewpoint... I’ve often heard and can related to the angle that depression is often repressed anger - suppose they could work both ways...
In some people anger and frustration turn into a habitual way of looking at life, turning depression into a mere habitual state of mind for them, incapable of distinguishing when they really feel happy, or just a conditioned reflex ...
Thanks for sharing @rok-sivante
regards
Yep.
Your welcome. 🙏
Oh wow, this feels like you are writing my lifestory!
Cannot wait to read the whole piece through the different parts!
Shite. Whodathunk such a feat could be accomplished in under 1000 words! Lol. :-)
These aspects of the human experience... well, they’re just a part of the human experience. All a part of the journey, we all share with different variations of how they play out, but same underlying themes.
The last three instalments have been posted... 💖
I know right??
How did you get into my head Rok??
😉
Will read now!
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perhaps it's a matter of humbling ourselves to let go of our personal associations - i.e. "my" head - and opening access to the "master mind," "collective consciousness," "higher self," *blah blah blah (damn "spiritual" terms), from which we're simply streaming shared experiences - nothing particularly unique or individual about what's going on in "our" heads, but recognizing the cultural programs and common patterns at play throughout the human psyche as a whole...
or some shit. he he.
You are a vessel for the information to pass through??
:)
Perhaps that'd be one dimension...
Wow man this speaks to me on so many levels. I literally just Googled the definition of cyclothymia.
Before I started on therapy, my addiction too was anger and with that, my addiction to finding quick answers online. Know what term stood out to me?
Complex PTSD. Basically, PTSD but milder in nature i.e. you aren't some traumatized soldier who saw combat.
But all of it was honestly a way for me to go down a rabbit hole.
I just wanted to identify with something just so I could know something was legitimately wrong with me. That way, I felt I'd be able to find proper solutions and of course, feel validated in acting like an angry monster.
In other words, I wanted a free pass in life, which ultimately did not came to pass because face it, it was just my insecurities crying out for help; help from others so they can do the work for me instead.
As an aside, I must say the internet and social media has made it way too easy for people to think that they can categorize, hence self-diagnose a mental problem.
Looking forward to part two man. Thanks for the honesty and non-cheesy woo-woo post on self-development @rok-sivante.
LOL ooops. I don't know why this posted twice. Thanks Steemit.
Very great post part 1 Bro.
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Interesting, different, quality post although a some what stage topic.