Wow man this speaks to me on so many levels. I literally just Googled the definition of cyclothymia.

Before I started on therapy, my addiction too was anger and with that, my addiction to finding quick answers online. Know what term stood out to me?

Complex PTSD. Basically, PTSD but milder in nature i.e. you aren't some traumatized soldier who saw combat.

But all of it was honestly a way for me to go down a rabbit hole.

I just wanted to identify with something just so I could know something was legitimately wrong with me. That way, I felt I'd be able to find proper solutions and of course, feel validated in acting like an angry monster.

In other words, I wanted a free pass in life, which ultimately did not came to pass because face it, it was just my insecurities crying out for help; help from others so they can do the work for me instead.

As an aside, I must say the internet and social media has made it way too easy for people to think that they can categorize, hence self-diagnose a mental problem.

Looking forward to part two man. Thanks for the honesty and non-cheesy woo-woo post on self-development @rok-sivante.