Hey @jackmiller.

I can relate with most of what you fell. I am afraid of failing and cant express what i fell very well. Usualy i save it for my self. For me the harder part is to make the change because i usualy quit. I really have to see a doctor also but i dont fell ready. Life is full of strange and impredictable events and that may be scary.
So just stay strong and dont give up! If life kick you in the head just kick her in the nutts.

See you around.
SteemON!