I can hear the loneliness and struggle in your message, it is heart breaking. Sounds like you are feeling pretty rejected by the world. We all experience this rejection at times together, maybe you can feel a little less alone knowing this.

What I can see in your words is that you have been working really hard every day. I can hear a good heart that will carry you through this time of challenge. It might be time for new stories to fill your head. When your family, parents and siblings tell you that you are a burden and you need more money-- try not to have those words be your food. You know what I mean? Don't swallow their message. Don't let people who hurt you plant seeds in your head that grow into a jungle of self hate. It's not you, you are beautiful and deserve happiness and peace inside.

Start listening to words and thoughts that bring you strength and hope. Give yourself a time out to reset. Instead of crying alone, laugh alone, or smile at how beautiful a feather can be. The simple little things. I know it might sound silly, but look in the mirror some time and tell yourself, "I love you! I know you are trying, and things are getting better every day." Little daily practices make a huge difference. Bring little things into your life, here and there that make it better, those are the seeds for your new garden. You can do this! You can be free from running in circles trying to please the people around you. If you are looking for love, you have to practice on yourself, practice forgiving yourself, there are wonderful things that are waiting for you. If you want to receive them, you got to pull the weeds and plant the seeds! I hope things get better soon.