AI believe there is a supreme God who sees us and loves all and I think you should continue believing in Him. Please don't use those Christians as a yardstick to decide if you should hold on to your faith. They are human and like every human on earth, they are flawed.

Even the strongest of Christians will make mistakes that in the eyes of a man, will make him less worthy of being a Christian, but what matters is how God sees him.

We are saved by grace and remain Christians by faith. Even our best act of righteousness is like a filthy rag before God, but his grace continue to make us worthy.

Please keep your faith. You have seen first hand how much He loves and hears when you cry.

The world will tell you otherwise as they want you to follow their religion. Atheism is just so confused, as far as I'm oncerned.