Welcome to Steemit. Thanks for sharing your feelings. Sorry for your loss - I can imagine that it has not been easy. I hope you consider your son a blessing. Your openness - will go a long way here. I see that you got some tips below from @parton - therefore I will not repeat them. I started in May and although it has been a slow start - I am still here because I like the community and it is fun so far to curate - like I am doing now. I have not written that much yet. Start having fun and I am sure it will all work out as you get known. All the best