The problems you've identified in the thinking opposite section and being unconventional are all that attest to me. However it's hard to be unconventional when you have the fear that whenever someone criticises something you are doing, it's going to be wrong or that you are going to end up In failure.

I've tried in thinking opposite and it's not worked so far, however I have faith in being a resilient guy and going the extra mile when I want to prove something and hopefully, I will prove some day that "what didn't work out for you, doesn't have to mean it didn't work out for me also".