My deepest condolences, @xabi. Nothing can prepare one for the loss of a parent, and nothing can take away the feelings of sorrow and grief.

Give yourself the grace to sit with your feelings, and let them have their way. It is too easy in this fast-paced world we live in today to think that somehow we must begin again with life after only a few days of grieving.

This is not how we are made to function. In the old days it would be expected to do nothing but grieve for 30 days, and people would come gather around the grieving, and grieve with them. A widow would wear mourning clothes for a year.

Now, for some reason, we think we don't need this. In fact, it is good to grieve for as long as you need to, and express it in the ways that show your anguish and sorrow.

If you allow yourself to do this you will actually be able to see and feel the light of day again. If you suppress it, it can eat you alive.

You are in my prayers, my friend. Do what you need to do, and feel all the love and loss as it comes to you. There is no shame in that.

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Your friend,
@mitneb