Super articulate writeup.
Your writing got me enthrilled and so focused. My eyes barely blinked as i read with keen attention.
The military is a great and well respected profession with some issues and risks though.
Nature knows why you weren't accepted on several attempts. But never give up on your quest! Probably, it wasn't even your calling despite the staunch passion and body physique.
So even attempted 'Gulder Ultimate Search'? Can see the military passion burning out in you.
Great article...I had to read twice