I know what you mean. It wasn't until I got older and saw how quickly my friends and family members had been more or less forgotten a year or so after they died that I realized what a slim grasp we have on BE-ing. Yet, in a way this has helped me to get as much joy (or even a little joy) out of each day. Until organic life is confirmed on some other planet I'm going to do my best to appreciate the amazing fact that I'm even alive . . . even my painful moments attest to the fact of how rare we living creatures are in this univers.