Thanks for your openness about the subject. This was a big struggle for me, I constantly lived thinking whether I would be a good mother, or if I really wanted to have a 24/7 job (because it is!!!); I like to travel and do other things that would need to be cut out for a long while or forever because now financial resources are going to be directed just to provide for the family and the future of the kid. There is a lot to think about, including your husbands future.
I feel your struggle and I wish for you to find your answer sooner than later, because with all the other overwhelming things in life there is no need for this one to be hunting us day and night.
Following you now. Good luck with everything!