My Ulog #8: If Only I Can!

This is actually a bad start. After a week of taking a break and resolving issues of my life, now, I got a worse one too.

Last Friday, I went to the mall and stroll around with the family of my boyfriend Jayson. I know that he is not that good looking man but I'll assure you he got a 100% very good heart. He always made sure that I feel loved as well as my daughter Shun Leanne. We used to see each other once a month since he is really a hardworking one (busy at work and we are a bit far in distance). I know how responsible he is but no one sees that except me. I enjoyed his company and I always felt I already belong to their family but how about mine?

I always want a transparency in our relationship since I want to make this a good process. Yes! I loved him, as the days passed by, my feeling goes deeper. Yes! Sometimes, we go out secretly because I feel that my parents don't want him to be part of my life. They don't want me to hang out with him. But what should I do?

I can never have a man like him. Oo, panget nga siya sa paningin ng lahat pero di ko naman yun nakikita sa kanya because of his heart. Sino pa nga ba magkakagusto sa taong pilay na nga, wala pang trabaho puro raket lang paunti-unti? Tingin ng lahat palamunin lang at walang silbi?

If only I can get mad at you all,
If only I can show you what he can do,
If only I can show you what I see,
If only I can yell at you all.
If only you can see how much he feels for me,
If only you can see how much I feel for him back.
If only everyone can see how I pray for this kind of man.
If only I can choose him over my family. If only I can!

How can he be this so understandable? I know the pain he got now. Yes! I already told him about this. That my parents don't want him for me but I don't want to break up with him. I am totally in pain. What shall I do? He is always been that strong every time I am too down. Gosh... I really don't know now. Please do give me a wise advice.

I know he is patiently extending his understanding for me, just for me.

P.S.
The photo in the content is a screenshot of our private message.

To know more about #Ulog of @surpassinggoogle, just click this link .

You can visit my past #Ulog stories too.

Day#1 - 1st Ever Ulog : Morning Habit With Mama, Ate Nalyn and Shun Leanne
Day#2 - 2nd Day #Ulog: I Feel So Tired!
Day#3 - My Ulog #3: My Daily Partner!
Day#4- My Ulog #4: How I Wish!
Day#5 - My Ulog #5: How My Day Went!
Day#6- My Ulog #6: When I Am Busy!
Day#7- My Ulog #7: The Day For All Mothers

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