Keep breathing. One breath at a time. The struggle is real, but the fact that you're brave enough to share it takes courage and honesty, and it shows me that you're trying really hard to overcome, to adapt. To survive. Sometimes all we can do is survive, sometimes we fly and thrive. Just know you're not alone. Not ever. There are so many who feel the same way. I see you. Sending blessings!

P.S. For me nature is the most healing thing. I'm glad you have the ocean there to sing to you, the beaches to wander barefoot upon. I hope nature soothes your soul. Peace, friend.