1st Steemiversary ||ReInvent ReAlign ReDefine

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Hey There :)

Oh what year it has been. So many learning curves, in particular to my growth as a person, as a woman, as a mother. Some changes had to be done. Long time coming and it was time to face the inevitable.

I started "KAERpediem" as a compromise for my sons. They wanted to be Gamers on YouTube. So after years of pestering, begging, convincing, promising... they did all they could, and I did all I could to stall them. Eventually I met them halfway. Yes to a YouTube channel, No to Gaming. Not yet at least.

The idea behind the channel was to go on adventures, experience life. But now they are older, they don't need me to create their videos. They want to do it themselves. They have their own circle of friends and ideas on how they want to be heard. They have their own voice and they want to be in control.

The tell tale signs had started since last year. Inconspicuous eye-rolls and whispered sighs. It started getting more obvious in the innuendos and the unspoken words. And it came to a screeching halt when we had to face the white elephant in the room and talk it out.

That left me in a bit of a conundrum. Where do I go? What do I do with this channel? How do I move forward with all these ideas in my head?

Since Steemit, gently and progressively there has been changes. I was learning to become comfortable in my own skin. Because of the way Steemit is, I couldn't hide behind the kids anymore. The writing, the engagement, on Discord, it had to be all me. I had to put myself out there. I had to communicate and connect.

It wasn't easy at first but it did get easier. And sometimes, I still need to back up into my corner and shut out the world. I sometimes envy people like Bradley Cooper who is not on Social Media and romanticise me going back to before I dipped my foot in this space of the nameless and faceless.

Then I see what I'd become, this person who would say Hello to the Sales Girl, smile at the neighbour in the lift, go for a job interview and not be afraid of saying No if I didn't believe in it. Go for a mini meet up with Steemians like I did tonight without anxiety. I liked this too.

Now I don't feel so awkward around people. I don't need to hide behind a friend, a kid, a spouse, a parent, a phone to be in a social gathering. What do I do? Do I go back to squeezing into the tightest crack in the hopes of enjoying the surrounding without being noticed? Or do I explore this new me?

I guess, to stay on Steemit, and to be part of the DTubeRevolution, I have to see where this new route will take me. I have always liked a challenge. So, yes there is a lot of hushed uncertainty in the Steem Sphere. But playing it safe, is boringgggg.

So, I am taking this opportunity to say thank you to Steemians have been instrumental in my growth.
@bitrocker2020(TeamMalaysia): Thank you for introducing the platform to me, and entertaining my initial Stalker Mode
@coloringiship & @angiechin28: Thank you for the gatherings trying to get the seniors together so the noobs can get the heads up on the Crypto World, how to cash out, why to power-up, etc
@littlenewthings: Thank you for always being the big, strict sister. Laying out the rules of what to do and what not to do and how to play it smart.
@zord189: Thank you for always making me feel not stupid to ask you the stupidest questions about the Crypto World
@c0ff33a: Thank you for the encouraging comments , giving me the confidence that I had something interesting to share
@enginewitty (TheAlliance): Thank you for opening the Castle doors for me, to see what a tight knit group can do for each other
@jaynie (Steemitbloggers): Thank you for your generosity laced with threats of a good spanking or more like "The Boot" for flaunting rules ;p
@hitmeasap & @simplymike: Thank you for the helping hand that made me a minnow much faster
@tarazkp: Thank you for delegating to me so I could get upvotes from @steem-ua
@neoxian & @legendchew: Thank you for welcoming me into the Forever Changing City ;p and giving me very nice upvotes
@fraenk(Googlyeyes): Thank you for all the delegations through the #googlyeyes contest. Gave me a lot to smile about and also a taste of what a higher SP can do :)
@khimgoh(SteemitMamas): Thank you for that first push to "Go power up now" all those moons ago and your support ever since. Always guiding and encouraging <3
@mariannewest{FreeWriteHouse): Thank you thank you for always reaching out. I can safely say, the Free Writes allowed the Introvert to stay on Steemit because I didn't always want to talk about myself nor regurgitate facts that have already been flogged to death on the internet with another How to....

Also a lot of love to Steemians who've just become friends:
@elizacheng @vincy @thekitchenfairy @metzli @ladylei @alimamasstory @happycrazycon @iamjadeline @crosheille @kchitrah @mumma-monza @eaglespirit @joannewong @francesaw @ireenchew @noriaakip @patlu @grayarty(I think you are not here anymore but you continue to auto vote and though it is going back to the reward pool, it is a nice feeling to see that one vote without fail from get go)
The list goes on, everyone who's path I have crossed through this platform, I truly appreciate each and every one of you <3

Last but not least, someone who inadvertently has influenced my decision in my journey from this point on @nathanmars: Thank you for the support, encouragement, confidence and believe in the platform which is infectious

OK, I might have gone on a bit too long. I cannot wait to see what the 2nd year in this Crypto world is going to do for me. It has been exciting and challenging and I have learnt so much but there's still more and I cannot wait. Thank you for reading and watching. Truly appreciated.

Be A Part of The DTubeRevolution: @nathanmars is on a Mission to grow DTube; Post 1 Video and more so Engage with at least 3 DTubers every day.

Images & Videos are from my Photo Gallery unless stated

Till We Meet Again Over Text, Pics, Videos, Maybe Even Coffee ....

Live Life Loud & Steem On
❤️sh33la

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