What a beautiful post. I can't imagine what you go through losing someone so close to you and I am very sorry that you had to go through this, but I am so glad that you did not give up on life and that you can and should enjoy your life after things like that happen and you give an amazing example to those who strugle with this pain of losing someone or going through struggles of life and for that I applause you and am grateful for because now you are the speaking voice to those who need to heal.