Oh, no... I am very sorry for your loss. Isn't it a curious thing, that almost no one goes and get a cat? Most of the time, cats just arrive in our lives as an unexpected companion. I think that's part of their magic.

I know how heartbreaking can be, when I lost my first cat to some rare kidney disease, the house felt so empty afterwards... I kept expecting him to suddenly walk into the room, or turn around and see him sleeping on the couch. It was so sad.

But be grateful you got all these nice experiences with your little friend, she lives in your memories now. Take care, @alcibiades!