I'm glad your problems feel a little bit smaller. You telling me that makes my problems feel a little bit smaller. My life wasnt all bad. I have had many good times. Especially with Aileen. It is just hard to not let the bad ones take a toll and shape your decisions.
I do really appreciate the words of encouragement. You just taking to your time to read my story which I have never told anymore. Even my closest friends. Is all the help I need.

If you want to talk about what your going through I would gladly listen. Writing it down helped me a lot more than I thought it would. Right now I should feel rage but I am weirdly calm.