I know I have people who would be here with me now if I only asked. I just can't do it. It means admitting that my failure is real. I have to act weak and not be the happy go lucky guy I pretend to be.

Talking to strangers who wont look at me different tomorrow helps. When all the things that matter to you are gone. How do I tell other people that I'm going to be ok when I don't believe it myself right now. I am basically just using steemit as a place to dump my shit right now. Not fair I know but it's all I got.