RE: Would you live my life?
I just couldnt live with the guilt. The grandparents are great with Nathan and he loves going to the farm. His first word was "tractor" ffs. I just don't want to get to a point where I put own selfish needs above what is best for him. I will always be there for him. Aileen would never try to keep us apart. She is really a great person. Just not s "strong" person I guess. I'm just to weak to help other people be strong right now. I know I sound like a bitch. Talking about my feelings is the opposite of who I am but writing it down did help. Not the most enjoyable stroll down memory lane but one I needed. I am doing ok for myself. I have come a long way and somehow still feel like im a better person for it. No matter what happens I am just going to try to be happy. Not sure what I gotta do to get there but surely can't be as hard as what I have done.
Understand and agree man. The way you talk about your son and your wife even though she has left you at the moment shows you have a good if not great personality. You will get through this i am sure. By the way you don't sound like a bitch to be honest. For people like you to talk about feelings and the past takes guts i think, no need to think other people will think you are whining as i am sure there will be very few thinking that. And the ones that are, should be ignored and disregarded forever. Interested to know how you will be doing later on this week mate, let me know.