Thank you for that, I dont think I am quiet there yet, mostly what I wish is to to , get what I think out, or capture moments, and would very much want people to know that the things they go through are most likely things that everyone goes through.

my parents were the type of people that would sweep these things under the rug, as if it wasnt part of the human experience, they could have done it for their own reasons . I just know that people need to be aware that its normal.

If its worse than that, yes maybe there would be need a to seek help. Often there is a burning desire to say something, when there is, my intense behavior dwells in the dark recesses or innerworkings of the mind.
I am grateful that the human spirit and hope in humanity is not lost on this digital platform.