RE: Reconsiderations & Guidance In The Obstacles...
I recently heard the question why we humans "expect our lives to get better in the course of existence".
I am 48 and when I look back I always had this subconscious expectation that what future holds for me should top the former events.
I realized that my youth & young adulthood was somehow the best - and simultaneously my worst - times of my life.
Nevertheless there was this underlying faith that times of great accomplishments & projects do still lay ahead of me. One can get 60 and still thinking this way.
We are so full of it. Of not wanting to just be ordinary.
I am having some difficulties to give up those dreams and hopes either for money (that I gave up long ago) or for fulfilling an extraordinary role.
It helps to become uglier and not so healthy any more. LOL!
Do you miss to be a father? You'd have the right age. Did you plant a tree?
What about the ... was it a wooden house? you aim for?
I more and more realize how much influence I already have on the people I get in touch with. It's not by what I get response and also many things people do not tell me because they are unaware of what influence is there. But lately I was thinking about my brother and the impact he always had and has on me (and now my son). I was downright surprised in that moment and thought: Alright, this will be the case with all other people, too! This should be good enough.
You probably will never witness the revolution of consciousness you are now a part of and creating it for future generations. That is somewhat difficult to accept but it's true.
P.S. have a good recovery.
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