When I'll be dead.....,
Your tears will flow,...
But I won't know...
Cry for me now instead!

These are touching words, I don't know if it is the custom or norm for people to celebrate you when you are dead but never as much as said a single word of praise took you when you are gone. It is so painful that is goes that way and thank God the dead can't get up again, otherwise hmm, na catastrophe during funeral because there is so much hypocrisy.
Please take good care of yourself, you will be fine.