Funny Things Happen When You're Desperate
It happens to us all. We go through shit in our lives. What makes up the chapters that becomes our life story is how we react to these situations.
I am no stranger to this phenomenon. I remember many times in my past when I was still finding myself, that the dumbest and worst decisions I have ever made was when I was desperate.
Desperate for money. Desperate for attention. Desperate for love and affection.
All of us on the path of enlightenment and finding our true self go through this. It's how we react to being in these situations that determine the rest of our life stories.
In my life, going through desperation it is clear to me looking back why all those situations happened.
When I was desperate for money, especially when I was selling cars, people could smell and sense that shit. It is almost like it was oozing from my skin and clouding my aura. Whenever I was worried about money, I rarely sold any cars. And then for whatever reason, I started selling a fuckton of cars (grossed $2 million in total sales for Ken Ganley, made personally about $40k).
I realized the switch I made was that I just started having faith. It was 100% all-in faith but you work your way up to that like anything in life.
I stopped worrying about hitting this bonus so I could pay for that thing or influencing that person to buy the wrong car for them because I knew it would help me. I just had faith that everything that happened was supposed to happen. If that potential customer said no to a sale, that was supposed to happen.
If after 10 hours with a couple on a Saturday, they still go elsewhere to buy their used car. That was supposed to happen. All part of the plan.
Framing everything that happened in my life at that chapter in my life, I think literally saved my life.
At that point, I was selling Hyundais for Ken over in Parma, Ohio and I was on a fast decline. I just hadn't realized it. I was the golden boy everyone loved me their, the management, the customers, the other staff. It seemed like an ideal situation. I was selling A LOT of cars (18-22.5 cars a month), making epic money, and at that time thought I was doing what I was supposed to do.
Wow was I wrong.
I was so desperate at that point in my life for attention and recognition for whatever reason I started doing some of the DUMBEST shit I have ever done in my life.
I can't believe I survived that year of my life holy shit. And I believe the only reason I survived my ultimate rock bottom is how I framed everything that happened to me when I was desperate. (shit for real if I wasn't in my parents basement I probably would have killed myself)
And for real looking back I can't believe I was able to frame all the terrible and crazy shit I had to go. All the pharmaceuticals, therapist, blah blah blah, yachta yachta yachta, all not giving a shit at all about me personally. They were just trying to milk to clock, exploit my parents insurance provider and try to get me to stay in a continuous downward spiral of desperation.
But through all this desperation, I feel like this experience created a better 2.0 Version of myself. I now knew if I could survive that shit, I could survive anything that life threw my way in the future.
Through the fires of desperation, I learned my true life purposes and how to handle anything life throws at you.
You just have to frame it as if every little small thing in your life is and was supposed to happen. So why worry about the past and try and change something you know you can't?
Get rid of that desperation and learn patience. Patience that if it is meant to be it will happen. You just might not know when and how. which is fine we are humans after all. We aren't omnipresent; we aren't all seeing. So how the heck are we supposed to know every detail about how our life story is supposed to go.
But for whatever reason us humans believe we have control.
Believe that we know what is best for us. There is no WAY any other being could know better than yourself.
If there is one thing you can take away from this personal experience of mine, it is we DON'T KNOW SHIT.
We think we do because we went to school for twenty years of our life or interned or worked for a certain expert or specialist in a field.
I'm sorry to tell you that doesn't mean shit.
You still need to find yourself first and the start on your path of enlightenment or you will never fulfill what you were meant to do.
Which is to fulfill your life purpose.
That's it.
Just one thing. Fulfill your life purpose.
Simple enough right?
So stop worrying about life and just let it happen.
This game we call life is epic once you activate the cheat code by going 100% all-in. I Am not talking halfway, or 90%, or even 99.9999%. I am talking about all the way fucking in. All of your body, mind , and soul have to be all focused on one thing:
Fulfilling your life purpose.
That's it. Just one thing.
And BAM your soul will achieve something that few experience, but more are experiencing rapidly everyday thanks to their increased vibrations.
It will be at peace.
Peace.
No more anxiety, no more fear, no more pain or anguish.
Just peace and love.
Can you imagine?
If you can then you are ready to begin. Realizing who you are at this exact moment in time and looking at yourself in the mirror and saying this is the time for change. This exact moment I will start on my path of enlightenment and work, sacrifice, and fight to fulfill my life purpose. Not losing your mind, body, or soul along the way.
And just know if your life is hard right now and you are struggling desperate for a change. Just know:
Funny things happen when you're desperate.
Thank you as always for your time, attention, and support. It truly means the world to me :)
Image Source:
- http://www.quotehd.com/quotes/bob-mancini-quote-i-think-desperation-is-a-key-we-have-to-play-with-desperation-and-not-act
- http://primmsplace.blogspot.com/2011/06/100-percent.html
- http://www.azquotes.com/quote/482986
- http://blog.startwithwhy.com/refocus/2015/11/wrong-vs-missing.html
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i think letting go of my fear is the most difficult thing for me. but i'm in, 100% with you my friend. thank you for this reminder this morning!
xo b.
Ayyyyy heck yeah sounds like a plan :)
Yeah fear was one of the last things I am working on getting rid of almost there :)
Well said my friend. Couldnt have said it any better. I think we as people, and me personally most definetly, over thing things. We need to look to the future but instead of stressing on where we are look to make it better. I try to take risks but make sure they are good and safe and worth the risk. What you said about rock bottom is true in so many regards. It takes this to realize more about our selves. When we are "all the way up" we take it for granted and forget how lucky we are. This emotion and way to live can really bring you down. Can really set up up for failure. The reason is b/c you arent prepared. I have been through it. I am still working my way back. I have lived the good life as well as the ugly.
Cheers to you and you have faith. It doesn't even have to be faith in a higher power, it can just be faith in your self. Believe you can and thus you will. You just told me yesterday to never say that I cannot do something. Because you know that I can do everything. EPIC. I know this isnt a new saying but how you said it, it struck true.
So lets do this. Vegas? Casino? ahh thats nothing. We will get there and everyone who helps along the way will be rewarded. Already do we have people throwing themselves at us. Lets Get Er Done!
Holy shit this comment is dare I say...
EPIC
This shit gave me the chills and is one of the many reasons why I lvoe Steemit. the freakin people. I appreciate you so much and how much we have and will do to help this world.
I am so pumped this journey we call life is about to be epic. Team Epic style.
Let's get it and don't hesitate to share you life experiences with the world, we all can learn a lot from you.
Namaste my brother :)
Real life shit, for real. Your perspective really can change your life! I went through the same vicious cycle earlier in life and the minute I stopped worrying and just focused on making a better me, doors began to open. Now I feel like I am stronger and I see opportunities everywhere.
Wow thank you I really freakin appreciate that. Means a lot. This shit just flowed from my soul, I imagine how a freestlye flows to a rapper. But I try to help out people with my life expereiences. Shit why not and I feel like it helps me as well deal with that stuff and make sure it stays where it belongs in the past ya dig.
Appreciate your kind words and your time and attention.
Namaste :)
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Holy goat hahaha thank you my brother.
Namaste :)
Great post, @chiefmappster.
Hahaha right and that's part of the fun of life I feel like my friend. Thanks for reading it really appreciate. This article just flew from the soul as I'm sure you well know the feeling my friend.
Yeah, I do, as it's happening more and more often, even though I’m endlessly frustrated about my posts not reaching enough readers. But then it is what it is.
Ay I emphasize with your situation but everything happens for a reason.
Sometimes i consider some posts to be "tests" to the universe, some sort of weird sacrifice of time and emotion to prove something.
But my gut tells me you are about to have your "aha big moment" here soon buddy, just keep doing great things. It will all come in due time.
Namaste :)
Thanks mate – great to hear that! I’ll soon be on my 666th post anyway, so what the hell, lol.
Hahahaha literally :) hahahaha. Love your humor and wit man you should be a comedian :)
You should submit an entry to this 100 SBD challenge. Just have to write some content or story about love check details here buddy. Would appreciate your feedback on the challenge. It something different we are doing.
https://steemit.com/photography/@chiefmappster/the-dreams-come-true-100-sbd-monthly-challenge-week-one
Cool, I'll have a look!
Thanks bud :)
And desperation is the shittiest advisor ever.
Amen my brother amennnn
This I can understand. Just saying it as it is without any giftwrapping.
Cool post man, look forward to many more.
Being who and what we are, that is what it is all about!