Im sure you already know this, but controlling your anger around your children is one of the most important emotions to control. My father used to get very angry and upset at us and my issues most likely stemmed someway from that. You have a reason to try and control your emotions though because you will be affecting the lives of other people you want to grow up happy and healthy. I cant say I know how to solve your problem because I don't, but I know anger never got to me as a child, it would always just make me angry, but when my parents told me they were genuinely disappointed in me, thats when I corrected my actions.