I relate with this post so much, from the Chris Isaak song to your words about life, and the meaning of life, and the importance of loving and continue to love even when it hurts. In my situation, I'm a married man with three kids, very much appreciative of my companion, and then... I have this certain intrigue, and it's growing stronger! It's an energetic focal point that feels like a magnet, drawing me closer to this other love... And it feels like my heart is growing larger, and I am increasing my capacity to love. I am fearful of the consequences of this, but more than that I am honoring the feeling. I'm looking at this with a soft gaze, without judgment, and just creating space for it to be exactly what it is, whatever it is. Hope you can understand what I'm saying. Just know that I appreciate you and relate with what you're sharing here.