My heart goes out to you and your family. If I may, I'd like for you to consider a thought. You are the expression and result of your mother's love. What values you hold, the way you see the world, what you'd like it to become, and who you are working so hard for were (originally as a child while the core of our identity is formed) passed on to you by that giving woman. To carry on the goodness that she shared through her life, everyday it sounded like, will bring pride to her memory.