Unfortunately I am just reading this three months later! I feel so happy that my post encouraged you! When it's time, it's time and ain't nothin' gonna stop you. That's just the way it is. An addiction serves a purpose in our lives as a coping mechanism until we don't need it anymore. And once that thing in us is healed it's almost impossible to keep smoking or ingesting whatever substance it is. How is it going for you now?