Thank you for posting. It is true....Socialism sucks the life out of resident creatures...your missive above is an expression of this very principle. In order to make a good decision, it must be made from a position of strength...of available facts.
Please pursue your search for intelligent design.
God has a plan for your life.....He is a gentleman...will not coerce you. He is waiting for you to say yes to His game plan.
Wishing you God's best for your life.