my frustration today

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today I'm very tired and upset. This fatigue and irritation made me not focus on writing. I'm upset at my work. let me tell you about myself today. I want to pour out my heart to all of you. maybe some of you know that I work at a tissue distributor in the delivery department.

it's been so long I want to buy a new motorcycle. because all this time my old bike was often broken and I spent a lot of money to fix it. because of that one month ago I said to borrow money from the company I worked for. the company's finance said it would give me a loan of $ 500. or equivalent to Rp.5,500,000. with the motorcycle owner's book conditions that I will buy will be confiscated by the company. I said it didn't matter and I said that I would pay in installments for 5 months. the finance party agreed and he said the money was taken on May 31.

On May 31, the previous day, I met with the finance party and asked for the loan money that we agreed to 1 month ago. but he said something else. he instead backed up by saying that he had to confirm with the company's boss. I agreed and I waited. and on Yesterday he said another reason, and today there is no decision from him. I thought, he really wouldn't give me a loan. I am confused about what he is afraid of. even though I have already said that the motorcycle letter will be handed over to him for guarantee.

this made me very upset because he didn't keep his promise. from now on I will raise money. indeed this takes a long time because my salary is not big.