I am an idealist and optimist by nature. Lately, those parts of me have felt a bit squished down by the weight of my current reality and by the bizarreness of the outer world. I find myself wanting to run away-hibernate...Live in my dream land. Before, I felt like I could change the world with my optimism, with my energy, with my passion to make this planet a cleaner, more peaceful place for future generations. At the moment, I don't feel able to do that. My frown line (in the middle of my forehead) has become deeper than my laugh lines. I need a break. Wow, I don't know why this is pouring out of me. I'm tearing up now...at work. Putting Enya on my headphones and am going to breathe deeply. This is a strange comment, I know. But thanks for the space for me to get something out which I guess I needed to.