If it works for you, I am happy for that.I think you are very brave in facing your problems head on.I think there is some truth in becoming immune for certain struggles if you choose to distract yourself from the problem all the time though, instead of facing it, or dealing with it from the root upwards.I try a healthy balance between both, but mostly going out, meeting new people, some random chitchat in de supermarket f.e. is an instant fix for my mood (when down), I used to pick away it my pshyche a lot! It sure helps in understanding and learning, but yeah, that selfdestruction part is something I'd rather never experience again (personaly)