Sometimes it all looks senseless. You keep going around in circles and coming to the same conclusions. You feel that whatever you do you just cannot get away from yourself and the things that torment you. It's tough being in your own skin when you feel that what you are is what brings you down.
I agree, but I do not understand why this person let himself go in one way or another, when he could fight. There are many people who are worse and that I know personally, but they do not give up they let themselves be surrounded by loved ones and they continue to fight, they should have done that too. But now there is no going back.