It's not fair for me to dump a decade of struggle on this board. But at the same time I wanted people to understand me, even my family doesn't do that very well. And I hate that. So I tried to stick to things that caused my to pivot that change my whole paradigm, and who I am on some levels.

In my life I've learned Not to depend on others, and that might be ok in the short term, but I took it to the extreme, not by my conscious will so much, as by my desire to reduce stress both mentally & physically.

With time, the door I had one foot in back to the living world was closing ever so slightly, that's why me being here is so significant to me. I am a Gemini, I am suppose to converse easily, and see many perspectives or solutions right away that others may not even consider at first.

So I have Not been living up to my own potential, and thanks to this block-chain thing called Steemit, it's like at the last minute before the door closes, a hand reached threw and grabbed my wrist.

A little ray of hope pulling me back from the dead. For that and for this community I am Grateful.

PEACE