In Old French 'introduccion' means "act of bringing into existence," 

and directly from Latin introductionem (introductio) "a leading in."

There are countless stories I could tell about who I am, and many places I could lead you...

Today,  I choose to lead you into a particular aspect of myself which is in complete alignment with the vision of this blog, #OnewithEarth for in my Heart this is the One story that rings true above all others.

This is my story of remembering, my story of learning:  who is the Earth?

This is a story of remembering who I really am.

I was born into this body and given the name Ausia Taileen in July of 1988.

Since a young age I was enamored with animal life, insects, plants and trees. 

I especially enjoyed visiting the bees that hung around the rose bush's in our yard and feeling them crawl on my skin. I loved rain and thunderstorms, and would run outside to dance and get soaked in the downpours. I played with toads, frogs, salamanders and even a snake one time!

We always had pets in our home, cats, dogs, gerbils and fish. At one point we had 3 dogs, several cats and 9 puppies. At that time in my life animals were my best friends. I personally took care of a black lab mix that I got as a puppy and named Sorrow, as well as two beta fish name Eli and Moishe. I talked to them, cried to them, fed them, laughed with them, I loved them and I felt them love me back. 

Throughout my life my dad took me with him hiking, camping, fishing, mushroom hunting and rock collecting. Through these experiences I developed intimate private communion with the forests, the rocks, rivers, lakes and lands I explored. Together we experienced the wonder of the Earth throughout Oregon, Washington and as far as Yellowstone, Wyoming. 

My Love for animals and the Earth grew, wove itself into the fabric of my Being.

I longed for deeper understanding, deeper communion and continuously asked for new lessons from the natural world.

The Earth spoke to me, as I explored, remaining quiet, listening, I felt the dance and the cycles of the Earth move through me, shape me, teach me; even beyond what I could grasp and understand.

My body naturally developed communication with Earth: 

through my toes in the dirt, 

my voice and hands in the air, 

through touching a tree, 

smelling a flower, 

to birds and bees and any creature with clarity of my thought and intentions, 

to trees and animals and other humans by opening my Heart and caring for them.

Even though my mind did not always understand this, the energy was clearly moving, and I recognized the rejuvenating power and sense of Peace I felt when connecting in this way.

Indeed, life has a way of leading way onto way... and as I searched and yearned to find my place in this world I explored new places, new relationships, new teachings.

The chaos of life, societal pressures and insecurities led me to place my dedication to  nature a the back of my thoughts. I focused on other things, I became wrapped up in visions, plans, stories, ideas, other peoples dreams. 

There was a moment, at age seventeen, where I took a giant leap into the unknown. 

I boarded a plane to fly across the country to meet a man I did not know, to live in a city bigger than any I had ever seen. There I witnessed the expression of new cultures, new ideas, new ways of life. 

I sat in an auditorium in a Canadian University, learning for the first time that everything I had been taught was a lie, that the food I had been fed was poisoned, that the air I was breathing was toxic, that the water I depended on was disappearing. 

My perceptions of reality began to shift, to slide and crumble to pieces. 

I learned, I witnessed; I fought, I cried. 

I couldn't wrap my mind around the demise, the blatant systematic destruction, somehow kept secret.

To understand this viscous cycle of life I was guided to bringing my eyes up to the stars...

I started to contemplate the possibilities of interstellar wars...

over souls... over power, over gold, how can we ever know?

All the possibilities that ever could be, flashed through the wavelengths of infinity.

I recognized that somehow, some way, the Truth of our inter-connections with Nature had been forgotten, hijacked, lost, stored away, hidden. My studies showed that All of those who had held onto this Truth were persecuted, sought out and destroyed.

I saw the suffering in our world stemming from the disconnection 

from natural laws and cycles that govern this physical plane. 

Struck out of balance with earth, wind, fire and rain. 

A disconnection instigated by a systematic agenda which aims 

to dominate our thoughts, disregard our Hearts, 

and sell our souls into a cycle of endless slavery,

instigating collective confusion, fear, doubt and depression 

that creeps and crawls over everything it can.

I fell, into desperation, self-loathing, again and again, rising and falling within the confusion of the broken system. 

I encountered many obstacles and teachers on my path.

Messages, thoughts and reminders came to me again and again, the Universe would not give up it's task to inspire my awareness. 

Many teachings came to me through books and strangers, through Angels that guided my way.

I grasped for knowledge, True understanding, and I received all that I ever asked for and more.

I received a reckoning, an awareness of the possibility of Enlightenment within my soul, a bridge that was shown to me, that I could walk across if I simply choose so. A pure rainbow of living Light and Love.

I bowed to Supreme Knowing, over and over.... and then I ran from it, over and over.

I ebbed and flowed, through complete and utter devotion, to wild abandonment and recklessness disbelief. 

My dance spiraled upward into the unknown as the masks of the past melted away.

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Always I returned to my mother Earth, to the planet which holds me, from where All life in this experience exists and weaves. Surely if I could understand Her pain I could understand my own.

Earth experiences constant change, seasons, phases, which cycled infinitely back into each other. No matter what the Earth goes through, she always creates beauty, and she always recovers, returning through the cycle of eternal death and rebirth. 

I felt the energy that moves rivers and oceans, that crumbled  mountains and sent ash plumes across the globe, the lightening storms, the downpour of rain, the beating of sun on dry hard ground, the snow piled heavy on top of everything.

I understood it so intimately, felt it as the same energies which moves inside of me. 

It was in these moments, sitting simply, in observation and reflection of Earth's Beauty,

through the reflection of True Love and True caring, that I recognized 

the pain, destruction and fear in my own Heart was the mirror of the annihilation and disregard my ancestors had implicated against their own hOme, this planet, and all the creatures upon it.

Like All creatures of the Earth, I was living proof of the duality of Light and Dark, the ever changing scale of balance between masculine and feminine, positive and negative, up and down.

Age twenty-three, I ended a horrific relationship, I picked myself up, I no longer could allow myself to be destroyed. My choice was Death or Life. 

I carried on into the arms of friends, helpers, healers who would lay loving hands on me, to help me wash away the lies that had been painted on.

I moved into a secure loving home, I began to take care of myself. 

I reached for the plants, for the medicines.

I reached out to the Earth allies around me that I knew I could count on;

I went to books and ancestors for knowledge, medicine and traditions,

I reached to the moon, the sun, the wind, the rain for support,

I prayed to the rocks, the birds and the water for wisdom,

I sang to the fires and let go of the songs of my ancestors, set them free to burn into ash.

I ate the fruits and vegetation offered to me by the Earth, 

I lay in the grass offering crystals to the moon, 

I breathed deeper than before, ran further than before, stretched myself to my limits. 

And through this nourishment I blossomed. 

Slowly, continuously, like the timid tortoise who naps along the path, and continuously is awakened, reminded, by a butterfly landing on his nose. 

For as soon as I would remember to open myself to receive the inJoyment of my life experience,

I was gifted many helpers and Lovers who honoured my Heart, Blessed my Soul. 

I began to remember what it feels like to be safe, supported and at hOme, at One. 

And then I began to practice to remember this consistently, every moment. 

And that practice continues now and always. 

Through remembering and observing the power of the Earth I saw....

the magic that is created in mountain meadows and secret waterfalls, 

the majesty and grace of animals in their kingdoms, living in tune, symbiotic with the plants and trees, 

all the forgotten sacred spaces that stand as altars to gods and goddess, 

All of these are given as gifts to you and to me

so we may  remember the Truth of what the Earth is capable of, 

so we may remember the Truth of what We are capable of.

The Earth is always accessible to us, in any moment, to be touched.

The disconnection, the separation, is only an illusion created in our minds. 

Though this takes time to recognize, to integrate, to accept the responsibility for our creation.

The Truth is that we have the choice, and we have the power within ourselves. 

It has been there All along, waiting for us.

Who Am I? Why am I here?

Surely these question will never finished being answered,

Who I am can never be defined by words. 

Yet here I am, awakening within a human realm.

I am Protector of trees, plants, animals and babies  

My heart is broken free from worry 

For I feel Oneness with Everything

I am here to Remember, I am here to Remind

I am here to Unite my Soul in Harmony with Mother Nature

I intend to share Her journey, 

To Learn from the human Earth experience

To bring my Love and my gifts to assist this planet

To transform and Evolve together. 

Today & Always I stand as One with Earth, 

Thank You for sharing this journey with me,

Thank You for being here in this space,

Please return again, I have so much more to share with You.

In thailand with the  Frangipani flower 

In the remote forests of Northern British Columbia, covered in ash from the burned forest where I picked morel mushrooms.

Absorbing the sunset in Eastern Oregon. 

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