Sam, you have been born with such a mind, now there is no point in asking why. In truth, everything is grace including your noisy mind. A mind which is obsessed with fear can become the very mirror that helps you see your true nature and thus wake up from the dream of identification with the false sense of “Me”.

No worries on the encouragement thing. I can feel you have so much to contribute here. Your an extremely soulful woman, so "Steem on!" S.<3