Welcome to Steem. If you stick with it, you can actually get something out of it. It's the sticking with it part that most people give up on. I live in the Philippines (Samar) so I know that OFW are a big thing here. It's said to have to be away from your family, but hopefully all your hard work will be worth it someday. Just don't work forever there to stay ahead. Get to know your family also, in person.