Yes. This is the part where, prototypically, I say "I empathize with you". But, the fact of the matter is that I simply cannot comprehend such a trip, and I apologize. If ever I could think of some consolation, it would be that you honor your significant other by upholding all the positive changes they have made for your life.
I am following because, while you do possess a captivating story, it doesn't seem to be over yet either. I am excited to see where this leads.
Thus, welcome to SteemIt. From what I've seen, I believe you'll find what you're looking for (though I don't know what that might even be).
Thank you and you are indeed right that to move forward in all the changes I acquired with my love is the best remembrance and honor I can outwardly show. One of the biggest changes in my life was understanding that once I accepted my "flaws", they could no longer be used against me. I don't have to like them, but they no longer have to define me either. I spent years "being strong" and never letting even my closest friends see the true pain. Once I started saying " I am not strong as you define it. I have pain, depression, sadness...and I have joy, laughter and friendship", I began a true journey of real life. His love and security were the starting point of that journey...not the end.