Dear Diary: I Only Ate Once This Day

I slept late yesterday and I woke up late too and after that I slept again not eating my breakfast. I woke up and my mother actually asked e three times already if I wanted to eat I said yes because I just have to eat but I am not hungry yet.

I asked her to give me that sir-fried noodles again as my breakfast-lunch meal. It has a bit of rice in it plus those chicken livers. I ate some of it but I left some because the gizzards are very chewy. I finished up with a frozen pineapple juice and that concluded my one time meal for this day because after that I could not really eat something anymore.

I did slept late in the afternoon considering it is very hot until now that it is near midnight. I woke up past seven in the evening and my mother again asked me if I wanted to eat. I told her that I won't be eating anymore because I have lost my appetite already.

But I am certain tomorrow if my mother will be able to buy me some stir-fried noodles I will be able to eat again because I am really in a intermittent fasting mode right now which I did not chose to do. I am just obeying my body because it is better for me to eat only when I am feeling hungry since this body of mine is not ordinary.

I was thinking that I have only a short time in this world but I am spending it without being able to enjoy food as before so it adds to my depression often. That is why at dialysis when my appetite would return I will just eat to my heart's content.

But if my government health insurance would be able to give me more dialysis session allocations that can make me go for dialysis three times per week than I might avail it just for me to have frequent times that I can experience eating with normal appetite. It can get a possibility maybe after the government taxed the tobacco and liquor products int he near future.