Does perfectionism tempt you to bury your gifts?

I've spent years training myself not to be a perfectionist. I was shock though, how quickly I can undo years of work. I opened @steemit, and for every single post, I asked myself why had I not published any of the thousand dollars worthy posts. 

Then this painful emotion, called "shame" devours me like a lost soul that haunts me. it's so real, responding to a deep seated sense of failure to react to the demand of my environment, real or imaginary. It paralyses me, I instantly can't feel comfortable being myself. It's such a powerful feeling that makes you want to hide or just disappear. Then the vicious cycles unfolds, we begin to ​overcompensate with more and more effort to hide...or endless procrastination....

Up until recently, I've been reading a book called "The power of vulnerability" by Brene Brown. She's shed some light on the interesting topics about perfectionism. I thought the little devil's advocate deserves a hearing on here today...

Brown believes perfectionism is a thought process that "If I look perfect, work perfect, live perfect and do it all perfect, I can avoid or minimize shame, blame, criticism and judgement." In fact, perfectionism keeps ourselves away to be the best self. It keeps us away from present and engaging. It keeps us away from self-love, being love by and to give love to others.   Perfectionism is a form of psychological mechanism, or "a 20-ton shield" in B. Brown's words, to protect us from hurt, from been seen, from being who we really are. 

Perfectionism ultimately sparks from a fear - an unspoken fear for us to reveal who we really are, that we won't measure up, to an expectation. We spend so much energy and time to perfect the trivials that doesn't even matter in a grand scheme of the things. We tried to spend four hours on an long winded email to perfect every single details, and it's probably still stuck in the outbox. We look back on the articles we've posted months ago, and think "Why did I write that? I should've..."
"Perfectionism is my greatest enemy." It's seductive, Brown said. It's so great to think there's a way to do things that I can never be held of judgement by other people, that you can totally escape from criticism, shame, judgement. “If you want to avoid blame, shame, judgment and criticism, do nothing. " It is part of the human experience that we're avoiding. ” Perfectionism tempts us to bury our gifts rather than make a lasting contribution.

I promise my @myday I submit a daily post on steemit. Every time when I try to write an article, I have to push through my perfection. Would anyone read it? Is it worthy to be notice?

My sense is that God wants you to hear his voice, from the depth of your soul. It's time for you to contribute. It's time for you to write. It'd be great for you to share your thinking with others, whether people agree with you or not. It's your life that you live, it's your truth that needs to be told.