Sweety whenever you feel like this you should call me <3. I'm always here for you <3.
I know exactly what's in your head and I'm going back and forth there myself but as I see how far I've come in just a very short time I get so proud and excited. Where will I be in a few months? Or in a few years? I'm building my own empire for my future and nothing is more exciting. Sure I don't have supermuch money now but that will come. Just do what you do best and the rest will follow <3