Video is not loading, will watch it later but I know where you are coming from. Putting it out there and getting an understanding of it so then you can move on from it is important. I have been an entrepreneur and day trader for almost 10 years. Have gone through very bad years of financial downturn and know the feeling of losing money or being down on your luck big time and for years. Take the lessons and become stronger because that is how you become something amazing in life. Going through big challenges will push you to your full potential, if you want it.