Wow you really opened up there. I have had GAD for years combined with some huge panic attacks, the kind where you think you are going to die. I have made it out of the darkness and it took a long time so don't give up.

I am very glad you didn't go through with your choice. My father in-law committed suicide and it really caused problems for several people. When I was a police officer I saw the results there too and it was also terrible.

You were brave to open up and I think it is a great thing to do. Don't keep your demons corralled inside of you or they may just take over.