I read your whole post after translating in English. And you have so big heart. Your friends must be lucky to have you as a friend. Don't worry, your all desires will be fulfilled. Why dear you are even thinking about Grim Reaper. You are gonna live much more.
If you don't mind, is the ideology of Grim Reaper really true ?? I saw in Goblin Korean drama. Like we don't follow them. We have separate theory.
Not a handsome Grim Reaper 😂