@Zekanem, I have gone through your write up, & u clearly stated your biggest fear in life. Fear on his own also attributes to failure. You shouldn't let fear attributes to your biggest dream in life. And also, at time failure is the road map to success. Cos if you don't fail, you won't learn a new thing. I thank God you are now working on your weak point.
I advise, you shouldn't see failure as something negative. Keep doing what you know best and have a wonderful days ahead!