Everything you say in your post is true, fear invades you and C is a terrible word that we always associate with death.
I admire you for your courage to seek information about the problem, I have tried not to think about it since many bad thoughts invade me. So I prefer to follow my doctor's instructions and pray very, very much to my heavenly father to give me strength.
At first everyone wants to give an opinion but many times that is not what is good for us, thank God my family has supported me, they support me graciously and give me words of encouragement such as: This is one more disease and we are going to get through it.
Thank you for your words and I congratulate you for having gone through your illness so bravely and I hope from the bottom of my heart that you do not go through that situation again. In the name of Jesus.