Hello friend jaynie.

Very touching story of your relationship with your mother, especially in those moments of celebrating your birthday and that now, absent your mother, you notice the great emptiness in your heart and the little interest to continue celebrating next birthdays. The loss of a loved one is not understood until the experience is lived.

I feel the same way you feel, because I have lost both my mother and my father and this is loneliness and emptiness.

I hope you continue to find spiritual strength and continue with maturity seeking to strengthen your family well being and thus, continue to provide support and love to those around you.

Happy Birthday to you. Success.